until i am sure

i'm holding back, from what i know
just for a little while, i'm letting go
because i fall too fast and i feel too much
so forgive me if i, shy away from your touch
forgive me, if i run and i hide
forgive me if i, do not let you inside
inside my head or inside my heart
inside the place where new beginnings start
i'll shut down my feelings and then close my door
i'll not let myself feel, until i am sure
sure that i can withstand all of the pressure
or whether or not i deserve any pleasure
sure of the fact that i will not be hurt
or whether or not it will be worth all the effort