until i am ready

i'm running from the expectations
crazy days
and situations
hiding where no one will look
in the most obscure cranny and nook
shutting my eyes
and closing my ears
so i don't have to see
and i don't have to hear
closing my mouth
zipping my lips
i'll not say a word
although my heart skips
i'll not show my face
i'll not come undone
i'll stay in the darkness
and hide from the sun
until i am ready
to step into the light
until i am ready
to put up a fight